A friend once told me that parenting is a personal refining process because it reveals what is deep inside of our hearts. I totally agree! Whenever I am impatient with my children, grumpy when my son wakes up at 5:30 AM, dismissive of them, or a number of other things, I feel the Spirit reveal to me how selfish I am. It all boils down to a feeling that I am entitled to pursue and attain certain things, like sleep, a hobby, a job, or relationships. These things are not bad; in fact, I believe God has put desires in my heart for them. However, my attitude towards these things often tends towards idolatry; no desire of mine should be more important than worshiping God and serving others. When I think about how each of my personal desires compare to the awesome blessing of raising my children, these other things seem so foolish.
In these times of struggling, I constantly need to go to God and have Him remind me that He has me exactly where He wants me during this stage of life, and I need Him to help me re-order my priorities and change my heart. When I have these things in check, I find myself being more patient with my children, excited about our crazy days and enjoying building them up and loving on them. I can also notice a significant change in my children and their attitudes when I have my priorities in order. I can't say that I'm excited about waking up at 5:30 AM, but at least I'm greeted by a very cheerful and adorable little boy. That definitely helps! And sometimes, like a special little bonus, those other things -- like hobbies, relationships, or a glorious afternoon nap -- fit into my days.
Right now, my focus needs to be on the things that God is calling me to do at this stage in life. I know there will come a time when I will have more time to do other things, but in this season I'm supposed to relish the time that I have with my kiddos, be thankful that I have the opportunity to stay at home with them, and hopefully, and most importantly, show them the love of Christ and build in them a solid foundation.
-- Jenn Davis
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